Sunday, November 8, 2009

Pink or Blue?


Pink....


or Blue......??

We are getting close to knowing. The excitement is building around here. All our emotions are actually in full swing. Drew & I are experiencing grief and joy all at the same time. The intensity lately has been hard to handle.

People are still asking if we know what the baby is. While it has been the most photographed(by sonogram) baby we have had, the answer is still...no. But soon we will know. I will admit that on some days the not knowing has gotten the best of me. I went to one of my sonogram appointments by myself and I have to say I was a little tempted for the lady to just tell me. I don't think I could have kept it to myself, though, so I closed my eyes at the right time.

Many have asked what I feel it is. In the beginning I thought it was a boy. Then I went through a girl phase for about two months. Now I am back to feeling that it is a boy! I think that is all I can imagine bringing home from the hospital. Drew actually also feels that it is a boy. All the boys think it is a boy; however, Asa said he wished it was a girl but thinks it is a boy.

I am so glad that God decides and not us. I can trust that He knows just what we need to continue on the journey of healing. I can think of things about either sex that would be great and also things that would hurt. Just as each of our children are unique in their own ways, I could see that having another little boy to love would be just great. I have already wondered if he would have mannerisms or looks that would remind me of Brock. To see the hand me down clothes again would be sweet or would it hurt as a constant reminder of the last little boy that was in the middle of wearing them.

A little girl would be very different and not have the reminders, obviously, that a boy would have with Brock. Mason said he just can't see us with a girl. He said, "What would we do?!" I assured him that I could figure it out. But the thought that a little girl came into our family after Brock's death is also a little painful.

See how complicated?! I am glad God is in charge of my life and not me. I know that He had this planned long before Brock's birth or death. I know that He is walking with us and that any hurt He will touch and heal. I know that on Wednesday, when we see what He's been up to, we will be filled with Joy. I know that any emotions that flood over us, He will be right there holding us.

So now the interactive portion of my blog: your turn! Post a comment...what do you think it is?
Thank you for continuing to lift us up in prayer. We need it. My love,
Nita


17 comments:

Henley on the Horn said...

I think it is a girl, but I know from experience that the Lord gives us exactly what we need!!! We thought for sure He was giving us a brother for Ash when I had Kappy 2 years after the triplets. We had 2 more girls after the triplets and Ash still reigns as our lone boy! God knows. I am thankful He does. We can't WAIT to hear!!! I am just dying to hear the birth story! Love & hugs.

Paige Stanfield said...

I think it's a girl, although I have to agree with Mason - what would you do with a girl??? I wonder the same thing about myself!

Beth said...

Nita,
The Selfs all are voting GIRL:)
Love you and missed you so much at the reunion!
B

His Kid said...

Mrs. Meadows,

I think that either way, it will be a blessing from God. I hope you guys are doing well and I will be deeply hurt if you do not call me to give you a hand when you need it.

Love you guys

From His kid

Christian Maiocco

Nicholas said...

Nita and Drew,
It was so good to see you on Sunday!!! What a blessing to hear Drew's testimony about Mexico and to be able to give you a hug, Nita. I am praying and praying for you guys this week. Helen and I did talk about the sex of the baby - I'm thinking that it is a boy! Much love - Gaby

MrsL said...

I'm thinking pink as well...although it really doesn't matter, as this baby is a precious gift. You are all in my prayers! I love you all!

Anonymous said...

I keep going back and forth!!! I would love to be able to hand down lots of pink stuff, though! Praying for you hard all week!
Love, Rebecca

Marie Black said...

I vote for a little girl! I have thought it was a girl since I found out you had another blessing coming! Love you guys, can't wait to find out! :)

Anonymous said...

Nita,

I think it is a boy but hoping for a girl. Girls are so different than boys and you would experience so many new firsts. Either way, I am praying for a healthy and blissful delivery.

Laura Heller

Alix Cloud said...

Hey Nita! Hope you got my "package" today on your front door! Of course, I meant nothing by the pink bag...I was more thinking of you than the baby!!! I CAN nOT wait to hear who you will be adding to your wonderful family this week-God is so Good!!!

Anonymous said...

I'm really, really hoping to buy a pink ball cap for our new little Wildcat and it will be very entertaining to watch you all learn "what to do" with a girl, but pink or blue I pray God's blessings upon your family, a safe and healthy delivery, protection and joy.....
You are LOVED! Jeremiah 29:11, Joshua 1:9
The Wades
Amy, Allen, Lauran, Harrison, and Payton

Anonymous said...

Meadows family,
I feel like it's a girl. It makes perfect sense to me that God will bless you with a girl...and then, all your hearts will melt.

Praying for you.
Can not wait to hear!
All God's best to you!!
Kim Hawkins

Victoria said...

I love the pictures you took of the boys in blue and pink shirts - very creative idea!

lindsey said...

I'm so excited for yall and its definatly going to be a girl! I'll keep praying for youi!I can't wait to get my hands on that precious baby! :)

EllaBella Photo Card Designs said...

I am thinking it might be a girl! Praying for you and your precious family!
Love,
Megan

Anonymous said...

Hoping for a sweet baby girl for the Meadows family! Can't wait to hear the news! We really missed you at the Theta Reunion!
Much Love from Charlotte, NC!
Ellen

mamaronof5 said...

The Sumsky's are thinking PINK!! Of course I agree that thankfully God knows what we need and gives us just that...so either way it's WONDERFUL and will be very LOVED!!!