Hey y'all! I have been thinking a lot lately about all of you sweet people that take the time to read my blog. I pray for you each time I come to my blog. I don't know what situation you may be in the middle of in your life when you read this, but God knows. I pray for who He has that will come across each post. Thank you so much also for your encouraging comments on the blog. They mean so much. Welcome also to those of you that are new! I am so humbled you want to join us in seeing God weave our hurt into His beauty.
I have been busy lately as I was down at Scottish Rite Children's Hospital three times last week. Thankfully it was with my healthy children visiting friends of theirs. Our neighbor friend, Steven, had some fluid drained off his hip. He found out he has a chrionic condition and will have to give up baseball. Our dear 12 year old friend, Lily, was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. She is doing ok and has been an example of trust as she has overcome her horrible fear of needles. I am praying both these kids will continue to trust in the Lord when they are afraid. (Psalm 56:3-4)
I was doing okay with all the hospital sights and sounds until we were leaving from our last visit. As we walked out the double doors, a wave of grief washed over me. I have been caught in that why? and what if? cycle for the past couple of days. Please pray for me. The winter smell in the air, the crisp breeze, the events that are so similar to last year have made for such intense feelings of missing Brock. Pray also for our health. With hearing people talk about being sick, as happens this time of year, I have found myself fearing that we will get sick again. Pray that we can all stay healthy over the next week just so we don't have to experience that similarity.
As all our thoughts have begun to turn toward January 31st, the day Brock died, we have all experienced a bit of a sad feeling. Continue to pray for each of us to deal straight on with our emotions. Mason our second son has been waking up at night with nightmares about Brock. As he tries to go back to sleep he can't get the dreams out of his head. Please pray for him as this is completely normal given the trauma of Brock's sudden death. Lack of sleep isn't doing any of us any good.
Please also pray as we try to finialize plans for what we want to do on the 31st. If God lays any ideas on your heart about how to honor that day of Brock's homecoming, feel free to share. I will let you all know when we firm up our ideas. Thank you all so much for getting on your knees for us. We love you. Nita