Sunday, January 11, 2009

Brock Meadows' First Bike Ride

I took this video a year ago yesterday. This was a bike that we purchased when Asa, our oldest son, was 2. Since then all the boys have learned to ride a bike on this bike. Last year in January it became time for Brock to learn. The bike had been sitting in the garage with flat tires. Brock had been getting on it and trying to peddle, but of course it would not go anywhere.

I mentioned to Drew that we needed to put some air in the tires of the "little bike." The tires have these thick plastic spokes that light up. Way cool but it will not accept our bike pump so we always have to take it to the bike store. The next day Drew put the bike in his car and stopped by the store to get some air. Drew is a wonderful Daddy, but he admits that sometimes things like that get down on his list and can take a few weeks to get to, but not this day, not this job. For some reason (a gift we now know from God)he got it done right away.

He took it out of his car on a Friday afternoon before leaving for the Deacon retreat at our church. Brock noticed it on Saturday, but I managed to hold him off until Sunday. Just like now in Atlanta, the weather had been really cold for a few days. On Sunday the sun warmed things up a bit so we decided to get outside. Brock put in to ride his bike. I tried to put him off, but there was no changing his mind. He got his helmet and was ready to go. I knew Drew would be upset with me for him missing it because he loves all those first things the kids do. But..., Drew was at the church at the deacon ordination and Brock was going to ride this bike.

I debated on letting Brock do it and not telling Drew. I thought I would swear all the boys to secrecy and we would just let him do it again on Monday and we would all act like it was the first time. I decided someone would get me in trouble, probably Brock himself, and I knew it would be best to be honest. So... I asked Asa to grab his new little flip video camera he got for Christmas so that Drew could see it on video.

That night Drew got home late, and I told him about Brock on the bike, but he didn't have time to see it. The next morning he called me from work and was having a not-so-good day. I told him he had to see this video of Brock for it would change his perspective on his bad day.

I had never uploaded anything to YouTube. We wouldn't even allow the kids to go on the site. They were appalled that I was putting something of their little brother Brock onto YouTube. The kept saying, "You are putting Brock on YouTube?!?" I tried to explain that this was the only way for their Daddy to see it at work.

Well, after a few hours of figuring it out, I finally emailed it to Drew around 1pm. It was for his private viewing that day. Little did we know that thousands of people would view it after Brock died.

He says some funny things, so be sure the sound is on your computer. A couple of things: Mason was on the trampoline before coming up to give Brock some advice on peddling. His helmet is spider man. Our dog is named Dakota but it comes out "Ko-uz" from Brock. Our four-wheeler is sitting just down the drive way. Brock comments about a rock on the ground that stops him.

As I am writing this I am overcome with emotion as I remember I loved being his interpreter. What a sweet privilege! Oh how I long to hear his voice. I miss him so much.

Hope you enjoy!


{ jamie } said...

Oh, Nita! Thank you for posting this! I'm sitting here crying, so I know this must be such a wonderful blessing for y'all to have this, but also probably so hard to watch, too. What a precious thing that you have this on video.
♥ Praying for you all.♥

natalie said...


I found your comment on Becky Higgin's blog. Forgive me for stalking you, but as a mother who has lost two babies to miscarriages, my heart aches for those who have lost children. I'd love to read around your blog and pray for you as the anniversary of your precious boy's homecoming approaches.

In Christ,

Lindsey said...

Thank you for posting this Ms. Nita! It's one thing to watch it on "You Tube" but to have you tell the details of that day makes it so much more special. I love hearing Brockie's sweet voice!! I miss him so much!!

Anonymous said...

I have smiled and cried watching this today. Nita your sweet and loving voice as a mother is so preicous to me. Hearing Brock so excited about his accomplishment is priceless. I love you all so much and I am so glad you have this priceless video of your precioius son. Love, cara

Victoria said...

Thank you so much for posting it and I am so amazed at how the little tiny details such as Drew getting the tires pumped so quickly are so critically important - of if I always remembered how much the little things we do matter so much!

Stephanie said...

I am a friend of Deena who is friends with Tina, your cousin. I live in Chattanooga. I am sitting her crying my eyes out unable to imagine the pain you live with. I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing his precious life with us. He is an absolute doll.
I cannot wait until we are out of this fallen world in heaven where there is no more illness and no more death.
I am saying a prayer for you now.

MrsL said...

Nice camera work, Asa....praying for you this week....

Anonymous said...

Dear Nita, What beautiful memories! I always knew you would be the best of mommies. God Bless you and your family and as I look up at the lovely blue sky I think of Brockie. Love Sherry