This morning as I walked into the den the sun was shining so bright through the windows that I could not see. Thank you Lord for the Sun. I am feeling much better. Thank you for praying. I worry sometimes when I write about my feelings that I will come across as depressed. My feelings are usually how I am feeling in my "moments." As time has moved my grief along, my moments have gotten further apart. In the early days, all there was were "moments." As time has passed my moments are still filled with deep ache. It is that there is now more time between the "moments." This allows for me to catch my breath in between. I think of Brock all the time, all day long. The "moments" are those times when the pain really grabs me or the reality of the situation is too much. I share the moments to be real. Hope they are not depressing but possibly helpful to those of you who read that have been through similar situations.
This weekend we rented the movie, Amazing Grace. This is based on the true story of
William Wilberforce's 17 year quest to abolish the British involvement in the West Indies Slave Trade. It was great. We all watched it, even Barrett - age 6. It was a great story of how God calls you to do something and all the while He is working but the timing is still His. The hymn the movie gets its title from, Amazing Grace, is written by English hymn writer and pastor,
John Newton, who repented of being a slave ship captain. He had the greatest line as he said "My memory is nearly gone, but I remember two things, that I am a great sinner and that Christ is a great Savior." The movie sparked some great historical dialogue with our kids.
Saturday Night we went to see Monsters vs. Aliens in 3D. A sweet friend, Josie, had given Mason a movie gift card for his Birthday last year. His 10th birthday came the week after Brock died. He had not yet used it so he said jokingly, "Since I don't have a girlfriend or anything can we all just use the card to go see a movie?!" I found 2 gift cards we had been given as a thank you three years ago. The back of the card said they may be expired so I asked the girl to check. She said, "Not expired, they are good." What a deal! We took all of us to the theatre for $10. We always wait and go to the dollar movie so this was a real treat for all. The movie was cute. The boys loved it. They have quoted lines from it since Saturday night. Unfortunately they haven't quoted any lines from Amazing Grace. Their favorite quote is from the blue blob character named Bob. He says, "I know I don't have a brain, but I have a really good idea." I have heard that now too many times. They laugh so hard each time. The movie was fun. I don't think it ranks up there with Cars or even Monsters, Inc. It is worth the wait till the dollar movie unless you have gift cards.
I noticed in the flyer that came from our local Christian Book Store, Sweet Spirit, that the
Jesus Storybook Bible is on sale for $10.19. Sweet Spirit is a Parable Bookstore if you have one of those near you. This would make a great Easter Gift for your family. We just recently got ours and we love it! Our dear friends the Goodwins donated a copy recently to our church library in memory of Brock. The libriarian always lets us have the book for a few weeks before she puts it into circulation. We fell in love with it so we bought one of our own. All of us love to listen. There is something for all to get from the reading. The author, Sally Lloyd-Jones does a beautiful job pointing out in every story from Genesis to Revelation how each story points to Jesus. It is just great. It will become one of your family favorites.